Enjoying today, reflecting on yesterday and dreaming of tomorrow ...

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Life goes on

Life goes on, they say. Goes on how and to where, I wonder.

People see a smile, but not the pain. It is there, in the eyes. But most don't want to see it or acknowledge it. They walk away with their own problems and life to live. Pass you by.

I see it in others. It hurts most when I see pain in the eyes of children. Not just once either. Some walk in every day with eyes that wrench at your heart. But you can't take on the world either, they say. Leave them. They'll get through.

So days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months and before you know it, you've survived.

Looking back at the dark points you wonder how and why nobody came to help. But, perhaps they thought you were tough enough and could get through anything, or perhaps you weren't worth their time. Who knows?

Tomorrow is another day. What it will bring is unknown, but you've built up your resilience again and you know you'll survive.

Life goes on, they say. And you're sure to get through and still have energy to give to others that need helping hand, a comforting smile or a warm hug.

That is the how, but the where remains a mystery and fills your heart with hope for a better tomorrow.



Gratitude and love to my best friend, who remains always in my thoughts and heart xxx

Friday, March 2, 2012

My March Daybook


FOR TODAY
Outside my window...
is sunshine and new rose buds about to burst open.

I am thinking...about perspective. Life is full of choice, chance and change. You can't live life to the fullest without taking risks; yet taking too many risks may end to your life too soon.

I am thankful...for clarity of thought, being alive and my family.

In the kitchen...we're preparing for my Dad's 80th birthday party tomorrow.

I am wearing...blue denim shorts and a long sleeved, grey top. Contrast.

I am creating...new ideas and understanding about teaching students to read. We never stop learning!

I am going...to review my goals and emotional state. To say it has been a struggle lately would be an understatement. What do I need to do to help myself out of this hole?

I am wondering...how a certain couple of friends are coping at the moment. Loss, grief, disbelief and love surround their hearts and minds and I hope they can find a way to cope.

I am reading...lots of books to my kids every night. We've gone from stories about morals (i.e. integrity & honesty, believing in yourself etc.) to Geronimo Stilton to Boy V Beast! Hahaha, such an array of interests that my girls have ...

Around the house...party preparations, anxiety and lots of cooking.

One of my favourite things...is being in control of my emotions and thus my immediate environment. No such luck at the moment. I have learned to let go a little, but I have a long way to go!

Here is picture  I am sharing...this is me at my favourite waterhole -- smiling inside and out!





Waiting for you



We were planning to grow old together, but now you are gone.
I woke up this morning and it wasn't a dream, oh my heart is torn.

Torn between overwhelming grief and a stoic attempt to stay strong.
Torn between anger, hurt, disbelief and love because it all feels so wrong!

Please let me know you are alright, please come back to us soon.
I feel so alone right now, my heart is beating with an open wound.

Where is your smile, your warmth, your laugh and our love so true?
As the sun sets today, I will be waiting my love, I will be waiting for you.

...


Thursday, February 2, 2012

Positive Posting

Being positive is something I have learned how to do over the years. For me, it hasn't come naturally. It has taken a lot of practice.

At times I find myself slipping back into negative self-talk, so I have to take a step back and remind myself to be positive. Luckily I haven't needed to resort to flicking an elastic band upon my wrist as I can be strong-minded.

At other times I come across a positive message and try to force it into my mantra by repeating it in my head or by writing it down. It is for this reason that I have labelled this a 'Postive Posting' ... I would like to share some of the positive messages I find.

Enjoy :))


If you believe you are unique and wonderful,
then you will learn to change what you can,
make a difference when you can,
and accept the things you can't do anything about.