Enjoying today, reflecting on yesterday and dreaming of tomorrow ...

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Raining on your parade

My family and I are on a journey. It is a journey we all share, but to reach our final destination we each seem destined to find our own bridge to cross.

The girls have spent the last two days at "pony camp", which included a one night sleepover. They have only riden a horse a few times before and have even fewer sleepover experiences, so this camp would be a test of their confidence, resilience and self-belief. I was hoping both of them would find something within themselves to make it through and then be able to use this when other challenges arose (like starting at a new school next week!).

My eldest (by 2 minutes) was challenged with being slightly off colour for the two days; at the end of the first day she rang to say her ear hurt and she needed to come home, unfortunately nobody was available to pick her up immediately so she needed to calm herself down and wait for her Dad to arrive. Can you believe that she rung when I was at the doctors surgery, my Mum and Dad were at the hospital and that when my husband received the message to pick her up that the car wouldn't start? In hindsight, perhaps it was her test ... thankfully she made it home, took some medicine and enjoyed a good night sleep. She also managed to override her pride and went back to the camp for the second day.

My youngest (by 2 minutes) sailed through the first day with no obvious challenges and happily spent the night at the camp by herself. This surprised all of us, but we were quietly pleased how it had turned out. However, when I went to pick them up at the end of the second day I found her curled up and crying on the bathroom floor. Someone had not let her back into her room, so she chose to go off by herself and cry. I took her out of the bathroom, handled her with care, then encouraged her to go out and have fun with the others by the pool. It took her a long, long time to stop crying and to join in ... thankfully she did and ended her pony camp with a smile on her face. We debriefed at 'home' (my M&D's house) and all I could think of was not to let someone else 'rain on your parade'.

And what had I been doing for two glorious days to myself? At 'home' in bed with fever and chills, of course! So, I didn't get my hair cut, I didn't get to meet my friend for lunch and I didn't paint write for two days ... but I am sure my lesson is in there somewhere for me to find, along with a little path leading up to my bridge!



This is one of my favourite images ... it reminds me to dance with joy despite what is going on around me. Perhaps I needed reminding because today I have received this message twice!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Who Am I?

Who am I?

I am a Mother of two.
I am a close friend to a few.
I am a daughter, a wife, an Auntie, a home-maker,
But no candle-stick maker.

I am a Teacher in training,
I am a puddle-jumper when its raining.
I am a rock-doctor, a dancer, a writer, a believer,
But no basket weaver.

I am a rock climber in summer,
I am a book reader in winter.
I am a thinker, a worrier, a carer, a sharer,
But I want things to be fairer!

I want harmony.
I want peace.
I want equity.
I want tolerance.
But my wants seem impossible when people pursue wealth over making do, best prices over fair trade, being right over compromise and taking over giving.
Aggression is the name of the game it seems.
Passion to do good by others and for others are lost dreams.


Or am I being too cynical?


Does a place, or a house, or a job really define who you are?
Do the expectations or needs of others be all that you are?
Or is it possible to be something or someone else?
Can you possibly be or do what you only dream to be or do ...

Happiness


1st AUGUST, 2010

What do you need to be happy?

I have learnt over the years not to depend too much upon other people, material wealth or life circumstances for my happiness.


I am happy when the glow and warmth of the winter sun enters the windows of my house.

I am happy with a strong, black coffee and sizeable square of chocolate in my hand.

I am happy as I walk my very energetic and often disobedient puppy in the bush.

I am happy at get-togethers with old friends or family I haven't seen for a long time.

I am happy when I can talk deeply and trustingly with a close friend or my loving husband.

I am happy with the satisfaction of a hard day's work or the arrival of an unexpected compliment.

I am happy as I watch the rain lashing our lounge room window during a wild tropical storm.

I am happy at the memory of childhood delights or first kisses.

I am happy when I read an unforgettable book, view a fabulous photograph or see an inspirational movie.

I am happy with the sound of my children laughing.

I am happy as Spring arrives and brings with it the first blush of roses and fruit blossoms.

I am happy at the beach with the sound of waves upon the shore and the joy of shell collecting.

But I am happiest, above all, within my own skin.

It has taken many painstaking years to get to this point, but I am now happy to be who I am.

Friday, January 6, 2012

A new leaf

Well, I have started! The first chapter (rough as guts) is all there in the Untitled page!

I am pleased with the fluency, details and direction ... not sure about tense and voice just yet. Very inexperienced in this sort of thing -- although ideas and stories have always been in my head. Well, perhaps more will come out today ... but Day 1 is typed up and OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!

Today I might have turned over a new leaf. Make time for writing.

The other leaves will need to be turned over more slowly and deliberately. Make time for friends. Make time for positive interactions with my children. Make time for my husband. Make time for regular exercise.

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)) xxx